Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Snow is a rare thing around here. But this is the second snow day in the past week. Last Friday they shut down the roads due to snow/ice accumulation. I am patiently waiting for it to arrive then I am going to fire up the Rhino and due some snow donuts for the first time in my life. May even make my first snow angel if enough accumulates in the driveway.
Thursday, August 01, 2013
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Ihave also gone straight into deboning while it is hanging up, leaving the entire skeleton of the animal intact minus the rib cage.
Aaron: And if some dickweed talks down to you or shows you how to do it “right”, just remember the famous words that Robert Downy Jr. once said: “Smile, Listen, Agree, and then do whatever the fuck you wanted to do anyway.” Later.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
There comes a time in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out- ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world from a new perspective. This is your awakening.
You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something, or someone, to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that there aren’t always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after " must begin with you. Then a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
So you begin making your way through the "reality of today" rather than holding out for the "promise of tomorrow." You realize that much of who you are, and the way you navigate through life is, in great part, a result of all the social conditioning you’ve received over the course of a lifetime. And you begin to sift through all the nonsense you were taught about:
how you should look and how much you should weigh
what you should wear and where you should shop
where you should live or what type of car you should drive
who you should sleep with and how you should behave
who you should marry and why you should stay
the importance of having children or what you owe your family
Slowly you begin to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really believe in. And you begin to discard the doctrines you have outgrown, or should never have practiced to begin with.
You accept the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that’s OK... they are entitled to their own views and opinions. And, you come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a "perfect 10" Or a perfect human being for that matter. So you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head or agonizing over how you compare. And you take a long look at yourself in the mirror and you make a promise to give yourself the same unconditional love and support you give so freely to others. Then a sense of confidence is born of self-approval.
And, you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" hungry for your next fix, a new dress, another pair of shoes or looks of approval and admiration from family, friends or even strangers who pass by. Then you discover that it is truly in giving that we receive and that the joy and abundance you seek grows out of the giving. And you recognize the importance of "creating" & "contributing" rather than "obtaining " & "accumulating."
And you give thanks for the simple things you’ve been blessed with; things that millions of people upon the face of the earth can only dream about a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed and the freedom to pursue your own dreams.
And then you begin to love and to care for yourself. You stop engaging in self-destructive behaviors including participating in dysfunctional relationships. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and exercising. And because you’ve learned that fatigue drains the spirit and creates doubt and fear, you give yourself permission to rest. And just as food is fuel for the body, laughter is fuel for the spirit and so you make it a point to create time for play.
Then you learn about love and relationships, how to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. And you allow only the hands of a lover who truly loves and respects you to glorify you with his touch. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say, intentionally or unintentionally and that not everyone will always come through and interestingly enough, it’s not always about you. So, you stop lashing out and pointing fingers or looking to place blame for the things that were done to you or weren’t done for you. And you learn to keep your Ego in check and to acknowledge and redirect the destructive emotions it spawns; anger, jealousy and resentment.
You learn how to say I was wrong and to forgive people for their own human frailties. You learn to build bridges instead of walls and about the healing power of love as it is expressed through a kind word, a warm smile or a friendly gesture. And, at the same time, you eliminate any relationships that are hurtful or fail to uplift and edify you. You stop working so hard at smoothing things over and setting your needs aside. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right to want or expect certain things. And you learn the importance of communicating your needs with confidence and grace. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that eventually martyrs are burned at the stake. Then you learn to distinguish between guilt, and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that you don’t know all the answers, it’s not your job to save the world and that sometimes you just need to Let Go.
Moreover, you learn to look at people as they really are and not as you would want them to be, and you are careful not to project your neediness or insecurities onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be, more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love and relationships and that that not everyone can always love you the way you would want them to. So you stop appraising your worth by the measure of love you are given. And suddenly you realize that it’s wrong to demand that someone live their life or sacrifice their dreams just to serve your needs, ease your insecurities, or meet "your " standards and expectations. You learn that the only love worth giving and receiving is the love that is given freely without conditions or limitations. And you learn what it means to love. So you stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that "alone" does not mean "lonely" and you begin to discover the joy of spending time "with yourself" and "on yourself." Then you discover the greatest and most fulfilling love you will ever know. Self Love. And so, it comes to pass that through understanding your heart heals; and now all new things are possible.
Moving along, you begin to avoid Toxic people and conversations. And you stop wasting time and energy rehashing your situation with family and friends. You learn that talk doesn’t change things and that unrequited wishes can only serve to keep you trapped in the past. So, you stop lamenting over what could or should have been and you make a decision to leave the past behind. Then you begin to invest your time and energy to affect positive change. You take a personal inventory of all your strengths and weaknesses and the areas you need to improve in order to move ahead. You set your goals and map out a plan of action to see things through.
You learn that life isn’t always fair and you don’t always get what you think you deserve and you stop personalizing every loss or disappointment. You learn to accept that sometimes bad things happen to good people and that these things are not an act of God... but merely a random act of fate.
And you stop looking for guarantees because you’ve learned that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected and that whatever happens, you’ll learn to deal with it. And you learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time FEAR itself. So you learn to step right into and through your fears because to give into fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. You learn that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophesy and you learn to go after what you want and not to squander your life living under a cloud of indecision or feelings of impending doom.
Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart’s desire. Then a sense of power is born of self-reliance. And you live with honor and integrity because you know that these principles are not the outdated ideals of a by-gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build your life. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful opportunity and exciting possibility. Then you hang a wind chime outside your window to remind yourself what beauty there is in Simplicity.
Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you FAKE a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can
A word about the Power of Prayer: In some of my darkest, most painful and frightening hours, I have prayed not for the answers to my prayers or for material things but for my "God" to help me find the strength, confidence and courage to persevere; to face each day and to do what I must do.
Remember this: "You are an expression of the almighty. The spirit of God resides within you and moves through you. Open your heart, speak to that spirit and it will heal and empower you." My "God" has never failed me.
Tuesday, April 03, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellowfin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them. The Mexican replied, "only a little while."
The American then asked why he didn't stay out longer and catch more fish. The Mexican said that he had enough to support his family's immediate needs. The American then asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?" The Mexican fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little,
play with my children, take siesta with my wife, Maria, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos, I have a full and busy life, señor."
The American scoffed, "I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing and with the proceeds buy a bigger boat. With the proceeds from the bigger boat, you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your
catch to a middleman, you would sell directly to the processor, eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. "You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then LA and eventually NYC where you will run your expanding enterprise."
The Mexican fisherman asked, "But señor, how long will this all take?" To which the American replied, "15-20 years."
"But what then, señor?" The American laughed and said that's the best part. When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions.
"Millions, señor? Then what?" The American said, "Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos."
I found the above and it made me stop and think. What do I/you consider to be success? At what point in our lives do we "have enough stuff"? At what point do we enjoy what we have and not want what we don't have? Something to think about. Later.
Sunday, January 08, 2012
One fellow on the show talked about how his family does a "financial purge" from time to time. Basically, for one week the whole family does not spend any money. No going out to eat, no movies, no extras...no spending. So we did it. After this holiday's spending spree, it was the perfect time to stop spending; especially on the extras that we really didn't need. So, starting at noon last Friday, I quit spending money. We usually go shopping on Sunday after church for groceries but we passed on it last week. The point was to eat and use what we already had but usually passed on because we had other things we preferred. Cheryl cooked several nights and surprisingly we survived just fine without our weeks supply of groceries and other items.
There were several items I would have just picked up on the way home but didn't. I figured if I still needed it Friday, then I would go and get it. It was a good learning experience. I plan on doing this more often in the future. Maybe even a week every month. But even if you spend money on groceries, that is not the point. It is the extras that I wanted to cut back on and I did. Imagine, still having your paycheck in the account when you get the next paycheck. It was nice. I had a note due so I paid extra on it with the money I saved. It was a win-win for me.
So do yourself a favor and perform a financial purge yourself. You may just get something out of it that you can use all year long. Later.
Monday, January 02, 2012
Saturday we were headed to Sulphur to help a friend from work flip a trailer over with the tractor that he had been working on. I stopped by the local car wash to rinse off the tractor since the last time I used it was to bush hog and it was covered in dust. The owner of the car wash watched as I pulled into a bay and met me by the tractor. He proceeded to tell me I couldn't wash the mud off the tractor. The mud clogs the drain. We discussed/argued for a couple of minutes back and forth of rather or not I could wash the tractor there. I mentioned to him that this is a car wash; people don't bring clean cars to wash them. He told me that is was a car wash, not a tractor wash. I told him I was just going to rinse the tractor off and not clean out the bucket which had a couple of shovels worth of mud in it. He mumbled and grumbled as he walked off and I washed the tractor off. He was a real prick about the whole thing.
But it got to me. The more that I thought about it the more I just couldn't let it go. He could have handled it differently. He could have asked versus being a dick. Now, one good thing I can do is wait. I do not have to execute my attack immediately. I can take months to plan out just how I will get someone or a company back. So, today I went to the deer lease to sight in a rifle and do a little squirrel hunting. Normally, I get a little mud on the tires of the Tahoe running the logging roads at the lease. But today, I went mud ridding. There are plenty of mud holes to get the ole gal good and muddy and I didn't pass a mud hole without letting those Fierce Attitude mud tires eat away at some good ole gumbo mud and red clay. Of course, after a good day of mud ridding one must clean their vehicle off.
I pulled into the car wash with half of Beauregard parish stuck to my truck. $1 later, I left with a clean car from the car wash and a smile on my face. To make it even sweeter, someone left two dollars in quarters next to the controls. So not only did I get my satisfaction but I also made a profit. But I reckon the best of it all, was when I passed the security camera, I stopped, looked dead at it and said slowly "it ain't a tractor...it's a car". He underestimated his opponent. Never piss off a fool with more time and quarters than he has common sense. There is no telling what he will do to prove his point. Later.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Everyone asks me "how much weight are you gonna lose?" You know, I really didn't have a weight goal when I started. Since I started I wanted to get under an eighth-of-a-ton. (250 lbs) Now I am below that and wasn’t sure when to stop losing. I have lost between 80-90 lbs since I started losing earlier this year. One thing that still amazes me is my new pants size. I have never been able to shop in the “normal people” side of the store. Now I wear a 38” waist. A 38 INCH WAIST! Unbelievable. I could care less what the poundage is. I never thought I could get to this size waist. But I am at the point now that I am not trying to lose weight but trying to maintain where I am currently. I want to tone up and bulk up if I can; but most importantly not gain it back. I never want to go back to that old lifestyle. I was obese for the last 27 years out of my 36 years on this earth. That is a heck of a bad habit to break and I constantly worry about slipping back. I plan on continuing to log everything in myfitnesspal for as long as it takes; the rest of my life is fine with me. I find myself logging food down before I eat it or while it is being prepared or heated up. It is not an inconvenience that one might think it is once you get accustomed to it.
Three things helped me get where I am today. 1-God: I have prayed everyday for help and guidance and he has certainly blessed me with both. 2-The Diet Solution: Isabelle gave me the knowledge of how to eat including what size portions, how often, and what foods to eat together and which foods to stay away from. And last but not least 3-MyFitnessPal: I could have never done it without some way of logging everything down. I never realized what and how much I was eating until keeping track and seeing it every day on myfitnesspal. With the computer and iPhone, it is so easy to do. I would gladly pay good money to use this service that is free.
Anyway, little more than I planned on for an update, but you get the point. Whatever you do, don’t give up. It is worth it in the end. And if I, someone who has been overweight since elementary school, can do it…you can too. Any questions, just ask. I will gladly share my experiences with you of what worked and did not work for me. I hope and pray that all of you have a happy and glorious Christmas. Later.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
I've done pretty good on the weight loss goals. I never really had a specific weight goal in pounds-just to be healthy. I was at 300 when I started keeping track and was down to 224 a few weeks ago. I bounce around 225 and 226. Still watching everything I eat and continue to log down everyday, every meal. I am where I want to be for the most part. Need to get into better shape for the most part but size wise, I am happy where I am. Trim down the gut and tone up are my plans. 223 pounds of twisted steel and sex appeal works for me baby.
Still can't get motivated to exercise though. Planned on doing something all day when I got home but after a quick project outside before the dark and rain set in, I have not done much other than surf the web. I am still searching for that "fun" activity that could be considered exercise but have not found it yet. And with it getting dark so early in the afternoons, outdoor activities are ruled out. Been debating on joining a local gym...maybe that is the push I need to get moving. Later.